you think you got it bad?, all i need to know is in a Kaleidoscope Heart, and the time that whizzes by...

Well I think its been about a week since the last post, and my reason is that simply, I'm busy and probably disorganized.  I've been busy with schoolwork, and other stressors that make time move quicker than it really is. So either that or I've been procrastinating very badly/well, the negative one.  Mostly reading books, especially if they have no plot, consumes my time and adds lots of stress to me, and high school already has preliminary stress even before the schoolwork, social duty, and depending on who you are, other additional things.  So I'm just barely hanging on at the moment, but I'm hoping and praying that I do get back on track somehow soon.

Selfishness has its own line that one can cross and be in a darker side, when all you can see is you, is when you've crossed that line, its like a loss of the light around you.  After worrying so much about myself and my stress and issues, I've become blind to certain things.  I've forgotten some important parts of people, like feelings and their stories and such, and I really feel stupid for crossing that line.  Thankfully I realized I was doing this before it grew on me, by listening to a friend's story and "cry for help" (issues and discussing them) and I began to think I was an insensitive douche at first, but then I backed up a bit to see more of the whole picture (metaphorically).  I've been losing humanity after all but in a different way than what I perceived, I started to be insensitive, and all this time I've been pretty ignorant.  Its gonna be difficult to stay away from that line from now on, I need to find ways and means to get as far away from that line as possible, to avoid future coldness.

This Tuesday, Sara Bareilles' new album came out, Kaleidoscope Heart, and I personally say that its amazing!  All the songs on it, are all perfectly written and all her melodies are captivating, it very much overreached my expectations.  So far the songs have connected with me in a way to help me, or capture what I want to say or what I'm feeling at the moment.  I have a feeling that I'm gonna like each and every one of the songs on the record.  Shes done a good job on her sophomore album, now I hope I can replicate that with my school year.  Take a listen to it on YouTube, or buy it on iTunes!  haha, endorsement.

Time is really passing by before my eyes, and I bet they are for you, whoever you are, too!  Times like today just seem to fly past us, I miss the times when I could just relax for a while.  All the stress and activity of present day just seem to accelerate time and preoccupy us, as we know it!  The best thing I can do personally, is to get one step ahead and stay one step ahead.  Never give up, and always hope.  I'm sorry for your loss 9/11, family, and Barça...