Welcome back, or just welcome in general, I'm gonna try to be serious for this particular post, so just a warning ahead of time. "Time is never on our side", I heard Morpheus say that a while ago, and it started an intermittent train of thought, is time really ever in our favor? The peculiar thing is that this train of thought expanded itself and even joined with others. Today, in choir, we voted for officers from our class, to help our teacher and help lead us. We applied beforehand, if we wanted to, and personally I ran for 4 of the 5 possible positions, and to my expectation and content, I lost 3 and withdrew from the 4th to be humble and to avoid further humiliation. I tried to stay away from the mindset that this was all based on popularity and not on honest to goodness, leadership quality, and for now I haven't touched on that yet. My competition was made of good leaders actually, but with popularity to kick them up a bit in the ranks, so I expected that I would not even win one position, and even placed a bet on it. I lost the first three, voting not for myself, not even once, to be humble once again, and so I displayed calmness to pique. Then when it came to the last position, I only had one opponent, and after hearing her input/speech about what she would do if she won, I realized that she possibly and most likely, had more potential than me, so I withdrew my candidacy (with wrong wording, but with humility) and I somehow felt victorious, even without a position on the "board" and having to pay my dues ($1 haha) for breaking rules of my bet (no withdrawing), I felt victorious. Call me crazy. I also failed my permit test, I found out yesterday, and so strong humility in two days straight, I think thats a record. :).
Tonight, I went to my regular hip hop dance class, and while dancing I made one of the most important and objective discoveries I have ever made. Since making my major mindset transition, about a month ago, I've constantly been thinking things, trying to stay on top of things and overcome as often as I could. Tonight though, I realized that I've been so caught up in my thoughts, that I've never really truly enjoyed anything without having to worry about something else, that is currently insignificant, then continuing my train of thought, I pieced the puzzle together - adults are so caught up in their worries, that they don't even realize that they're never really truly happy anymore! Theres always something on a persons mind that lingers, and that thought actually suppresses you from showing your full potential! So in summary, adults are blinded by their worries, that they don't even know what they're missing, or that they're missing on anything at all! :/.
Tomorrow, is an important day, tomorrow, is the audition date for the Fall Play, which is a big deal in my life for the arts have been near and dear to me for a while now. I'm having issues with transportation right now, but hopefully all can be worked out someway, somehow. Wish me luck! Noche nit.
I was unaware you took up hip hop dance classes :)
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Good luck on things :D
ya, things aren't looking so hot atm.
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