Hits/misses, long fought struggles, and shed tears... (Part 0-1)

Oh, if I could, I would make this post a very unpleasant one by bitching about things, talking about sad things, and most of all, I'm angry at one particular person that does things that by nature, just irritates me... I think I'm too angry for this right now... I'll come back later...

It's been a while--once again, time travel, and barriers...

I'm baaack... I'm guessing my return isn't that royal, cause I don't think people stop by here often.  At this moment, I'm pretty complacent and annoyed? So many things happen in the course of about 2-3 months--some pleasant, some not so... Once again, I'm gonna have to make a generalization of time passing, a summary of what's happened. Recap:  Hairspray is over, back to church again, swinging days in school, cousins are back... and almost leaving again, Cedar Point Choir field trip is tomorrow, and with some magic from an unknown source, things are going significantly better, especially with the Enemy.  If I didn't mention it here, the Enemy is... you can just find out on Twitter...or something... I'm having trouble finding the words to describe how I feel, it's very agh... lemony, yes, Lemon-y! (BTW Lemonade Mouth on Disney was a life changer...) Things are very "sour" and seemingly bright, but mostly sour because of a certain people or force I call "Barriers".  These people (mostly) and things are what's keeping me from finally finding happiness in school, they just somehow bring the past back to life, judge, hate, or just be plain evil... Sadly these people haven't always been this way, like (Codename) Traitor.  He's always been a good and hearty guy, open hearted, outgoing, humble... but something happened along the way (haha BeeGees...) and now he's a completely different person:  cocky, jerkish, high-chinned (figuratively), and just elitist--something I really can't stand about certain people, and I hope I don't become a hippocrite when I say that... Continuing with another barrier (Codename) PixieFace, she's been a threat for a looooong time now, but just recently she's attacking.  She's always been a total bitch, primadonna, ELITIST, etc... She acts like a succubus towards the Enemy and always seems to drape over him... dirty whore... Now where was I again?, well those two are the main problems at the moment, other barriers are unknowingly active, kinda like sleeper agents, but it's just the way they act... I think I just needed to vent all of that out and now I might get off, but before I leave I wanna find a solution, I always try to find a way to end a post on a good note, and this is no different... Tonight there's a (choir) guy's night out and I'm still thinking about if my presence is priority or not.  I'm saying goodbyes to my cousins tonight, and I won't be seeing them again soon.  There are things to be done, and all I can do is just, float on (thanks Modest Mouse) and see how things turn out.  Like I said on Twitter, trying to make lemonade, as fast as I can.  Lemme change that--"making lemonade, hoping it tastes great..."  Adios -E