I'm back, and at a mediocre state. I currently need multiple wake-up calls, to get myself moving once again, in all aspects. After briefly skimming through my previous posts, I noticed my wit and optimism shining through whatever, and the power that supplies that is my willpower. Every time I've written here, I've always been in a creative or narrative mood, I'll tell a story or say whats on my mind, but with my constant laziness nowadays I need to get a fire lit under my ass to get me moving again. Bottom line is, I need inspiration.
Now to the hot topics... I've moved to a different apt., and my room is much colder than my old one. In the old one, only the closet was abnormally chilly, but now its the whole room. It's clearly not haunted, but the temperature feels like it, its really a draft coming from my wide window.
Victory is usually a good thing, a feeling and an honor all-in-one. It takes work and will to achieve it, and if you haven't noticed yet, I'm talking about positive, good-mannered victories. On the other hand, the (seemingly) victorious feelings that your enemies relish in, make you feel down and lost, and that contributes to whats slowing me down nowadays, 'cause I care about (seemingly) petty things like family-friendships that are 99.9% exclusive, like the bacteria that lives when you use Lysol. Sadly when I'm around a certain group of people that I'll treat like Voldemort, I turn into putty and melt away out of either fear? anxiety? awe? I haven't figured out exactly yet, but I pray I will soon. Going back on topic, not all victories are in your favor, when you "lose" you just don't realize that the latter "wins". I'd like to praise the recent victories of those whom I care about: FC Barçelona footballers for their amazing 5-0 victory over madrid, + others (can't remember off the top of my head).
And so we reach our last point (for now), and we get to my diminishing progress with the Dream and other things regarding it. Usually all I have to do is listen to some inspiring music (I'll try again later) to get me started back up again, but there are some special instances when I need a little bit more of a pick me up to get me moving, like now. God is the best remedy, but very unexpected he delivers, but it is guaranteed. Patience to me leads to idleness and so I always need to keep on moving forward, how I plan to resume walking on this road, I have no clue, but willpower is my water. Let this be a message to my future self to show you what sedentary movement does to you, and how much better you could do with will and faith. Stay standing and survive through the winter, stress is the mastermind... "This is my Winter Song to you..." Noche...
